Weird theory???

~today, my classmates told us a very very weird theory of the nature....
~i never hear before and thats why i felt so interesting with that theory and start listening to my friend....
~JIN said: we identify something but we don't recognising that thing....
~oh my god, what a big question mark turning around inside my limited brain....
~i can't get what he trying to say...
~so, i ask him to give me an example on how the theory work???
~end up..u know what example he gave me???
~lets look at this...."i identifying you as a female but i don't recognise you as a female"
~what this mean leh?? -------->i m not a female....i am "BROTHERS"....wakaka...

happy bday to me....

~11th December was my birthday..... ~feel so happy and lucky to have friends like they all especially my ever best brothe---->YUAN ~present?? erm....i get a creative mp3 as my birthday present.... ~yuan present me the mp3 and i damn love in it.....this is the best present i did received....
~another present?? this can be the sincere hearts from my housemates....
~they celebrated for me...and i did appreciated....
~my funny + cute cute classmates also celebrated for me...
~we go sing k at greenbox till got a sore throat..no matter how still feel very happy ooo....
~ying, siew sin, rey mun, fai, joanne and amy...thx ya for the celebration..
~feel damn happy because we had been separated since diploma graduation....
~been a long time din go out together lor......really appreciated the day we went out together ~birthday wish??
~hope the friendship with all my housemates and friends will last forever and ever....
~although is my birthday, but still got some sad thing....
~two of my jie mui.....although they got called me but i thought they will come along to find me... ~but end up....no....!!! haiz....really feel sad......no matter how, they still my best sista.....

busy....@-@

~what a busy period
~everyday discuss, discuss and discuss
~sleep even not enough
~become panda
~for what?? -------> assignment!!!!!!!!!!!
~every semester, same time period, same people, same destination, same aim....
~work so hard
~put in so much effort
~all of us become so so so moody
~everyone also PEK CEK!!!
~is it worth???
~~~hope yes....GOD BLESS ME...GOD BLESS US..PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

malacca trip...yeepe..

~we eat damn alot
~have fun alot
~play "gao gao" alot
~took picture alot
~bought alot
~walk alot
~laugh alot
~lastly...MONEY going out alot!!!!!!


















~malacca trip full of joyness and happiness

个人觉得满有意思。。。

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手. 好让别人有机会爱她. 如果你爱的人放弃了你, 请放开自己, 好让自己有机会爱别人. 有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的, 有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的. 人生中有许多种 . 但别让自己为一种伤害. 有些缘分是注定要失去的, 有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的, 爱一个人不一定要拥有, 但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她. 男人哭了是因为他真的爱了. 女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了. 如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言; 如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默; 如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开. 如果失去是苦， 你怕不怕付出 , 如果迷乱是苦， 你会不会选择结束, 如果追求是苦， 你会不会选择执迷不悟 , 如果分离是苦， 你要向谁倾诉, 好多事情都是后来才看清楚, 好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

重新。。

~这一次真的需要下定决心了，不能再让自己堕落下去，一定要达到目标。。。
~不能再让任何事情破坏计划。。。加油吧。。。
~别再给自己任何的借口了，绝不能让自己在错下去。。。
~朝目标勇敢前进吧。。。加油。。。。你一定行的。。。。

Zoo NeGaRa.....yeepee...

~1st of November, what a nice nice for us.....
~special day for 6 of us--me, siew sin, bryant, chong jin, sam n wai hoe....
~birthday of my dear dear clazmate--bryant shi....hehe..hope that he do have a memorable birthday with us today...
~let us look at some pictures of our trip ya

before going..all of us wore up the ticket.....like power rangers can "bian shen"...


me n sin sin............


they are whose andy said "flower 4"...


siew sin love the wall so much...
me analysis-ING the wall.....


kambing gurun....looks so fierce.........


big big elephant.....
this orang utan asyik posing when we taking its photo....

jalan-jalan, suddenly saw this board.......rite got a phrase same with my college name....

brain broken-ING....

days passed by everyday....week 6 is around the corner......by the way, my brain still not functioning well....

today was a bad day for me....i put so much effort to do my revision-FR test but end up zero result....y i m said so? this is because i was realise that wat i revised today i have no idea at all...
me even think that have i learnt these before?

oh my god....what am i doing? i cant believe that what i learnt in previous sem was being forgotten oredy....oh no.......how should i cope with my coming test?

SiCk......siCk.....

start from last thursday, after i woke up from bed i just feel like my bone gonna broken and i felt so tired.....dunno why i just falled sick like that, until today haven fully recovered...so pity...

maybe this is the golden season to fall sick? or the peak period of sick thing? omg...really unbelievable...how come my housemate just sick for 2 days but me almost one week already still like blur blur, every day sleep, sleep, sleep and sleep...after taken my medicine i sure will " pengsan" for 2 hours....haiz...

because of this, i left my tutorial aside....but what can do, my brain doesnt work at all...just feel sleepy and sleepy....now even worst, at first i plan to do my audit tutorial tonight, but do half way, really feel tired neh + the effect of the medicine + my brain not function cannot think + i cannot find the answer (maybe i should say i dunno where to find the answer coz i m stupid?) , so i decided to give up......

but if i keep on like this, i sure cannot chase up my study....oh LORD, where are you? please bless me recover fast fast than only can do my things......please bless me.....

OBEY-ING...

~oh my god..wat am i doing? dare to obey the rules that set by my own self..omg.unbelievable
~i dun wan to become fat fat leh....sad sad sad...
~i m gonna sumpah here: from now onwards i will follow the rule set....keep on fight for my target...aza aza fighting...
I CAN DO IT...!!!!

明白了。。

~看了朋友的部落格才深深的明白了， 痛的不只是我自己一个人，原来和我经历过这些难过 的事还有他人。。。。感情这种东西，一旦受伤了真的需要时间让伤口痊愈。。。但是那段痊愈的时间会是几久呢？没人晓得，也没人能够告诉我。。只好自己慢慢的痊愈。。。慢慢的。。。

时间。。。

~嗯。。是时候充实下自己了。总不能每天都让自己沉醉在那黑暗的日子里，其实想想也许自己真的好苯吧， 明知道已经是不可能挽回的过去，为什么还是要一直活在过去呢？

~就让这一切随风而去吧，就让风把一切的不愉快带走，再也不要残留在我的脑海里了，真的觉得累了，是时候放手了。可是，我真的能做到吗？我行吗？或许我真的还需要时间来谈忘他吧，或许，好多的或许，没有句号。。。给了自己好多的借口，为什么？是不是还不能放下呢？我不停反复的问着我自己，不停的问，可是却不能给自己个明确的答案。。。也许我真的很需要时间。。。真得很需要吧。。。

~我只想简简单单的快乐。。。。就这样。。。。不敢设想太多。。。。真的。。。。

me in moody.....-.-

15th of October, 10.37pm.....y i am in moody? even me myself cant explain it now...

~because of that call? because of that sound that i used to know very well in the past? what is going around in my mind, i just cant explain it......i just cant.....oh Lord, if you are really exist in this world please guide me to a right way and please do help me to crossover all these things. I cant take it anymore, it is over my capacity. What should i do? Can u guide me?

~just as what i am believing, i tot never thinking about that means forgotten but it is not... i just realized it.....from the day i heard the sound and the words, my heart stop bumping just like my life goes black in a second. Everything, everywhere also in dark, i cant see the road in front of me and i cant see my future....in that moment i just can saw what he done to me in the past....really hurt....whatever he promised never come true.....and yet i still believing in him....sounds like so stupid.....

~8 months passed already and yet i still in love with him but the sad thing is maybe i was forgotten by him and yet i still stick my mind to him......never forget....why? is it i still love him? is it i hate him?

crazy shopping.....

11 October 2008
~ wow....unbelievable...today i went to shopping at sg.wang with my housemates...
~ bought a lot of thing man, over budget d.....
~ wat should i suppose to do or wat should i plan for my next coming month...
~ no need to eat oredy..all the money all gone for my shopping time...
~ but i feel happy coz this si the first time i can bought the things that are really suitable for me and i did really like it....so happy and excited...

我回来了。。。

我已经回来了哦。。。带着沉重的脚步又再次的踏入新的学期了，对每一件事，每一个环境又有了新的想法，总觉得应该可以带出些什么改变似的。。。在过去的假期里并没有做到什么很有意义的事情，也没有发生什么轰轰烈烈的大事， 就这样过了我一个月的假期了， 应该说是浪费吧？好像也没怎样让自己的身心休息，可是已经来不及了，假期已经过去了。。。不能回头看，只能向前冲刺了。。。只好带着疲惫的身子与精神继续抗斗下去了，别无选择。。。只好坦然地去面对前面种种的挑战与困难。。。我相信我一定能撑过去的。。。加油吧！！！

句号。。。。

今天心情总算可以比较轻松了，那让人提心掉胆的考试终于结束了哦。。。心头大石总算能够放下来了。。。。
顿时整个人都变好轻盈的感觉哦，这感觉超好的。。。。哈哈！！！虽然我的考试画下句号， 但是我家的几个还有我的一些朋友们都还在考试的期间哦，所以我希望他们都能顺利的过关，而且我相信他们都能做到最好的。。。加油加油哦。。朋友们。。。

bAd bAD DaY......==

Finally finish my english paper today. I am suppose to be happy but sadly to say that i feel a bit down and dissapointed of my paper today. This is because that the paper today i sat is totally diferent from the past year papers that we attempted usually....this is out of my estimation.....

From the beginning, i thought that at least i can get a B in this paper but now, from this situation i dont think that i still can get a B in this paper....hopefully won fail my english paper....now i must fully concentrate on my tax, this is the only one subject i can score in order to pull up my CGPA but i really dont have confident in this subject since i m really weak in this particular area...GOD, please bless me..let me pass all this paper....

Furthermore, today after my exam i ate a lot ....this spoilt my diet plan already..become fat fat, i will be sad.....cannto wear pretty pretty, no confident...haiz....sad sad sad...but i really cannot control myself today since i did bad in the exam ......oh my god.....really sucks.....
never mind, start from tomorrow, i will back to my plan, eat 1 dish per day....sure can diet one....gambatte ooo, dun let urself keep on growing fat fat liao....add oil add oil....

ExAm eXaM ExAm!!!!!

haiz....if talking about exam really boring lol. Everybody oso study and study....
really very very boring....Later i also have an exam to sit but now really no mood to study also, thats why i m blog-ing here.
All my housemates like very tension and stress, they study day and night but me....haha..play all the whole day long lor. But i also got study, i won be so lazy one. I also will scare to fail in my exam ma...now i m in the higher level, everything become so difficult not like diploma the time. When i m in diploma, i can always hang out with my friends, in the other hand, the assignments quite easy to complete....but now, i start feel stress and wondering that whether i can graduate succesfully and go for my convocation. All this things turning around inside my brain, i m really stress but what can do, i still have to keep it on, because this is the way i chosen......i must go through whatever hard things i faced....
With the support from my family and friends i believe i can do it well!!! And i won going to dissappoint my daddy and mummy. They had put a really really big and great hope towards me...so i should go through this hard time for ME n MY FAMILY.....
Just believe in urself...and u will come over all the hard times.....
ok....should be full stop here, i should go to study now for my exam....gambatter for me ya....aza aza fighting....
Lastly, hope all of my friends have a good result in their exam....add oil....

LeAviNg......

~~~today my mood is.......haiz, very down ....dunno y....
i don't even have mood to study, but the FINAL is around the corner, haiz, still lazy like this
play play like this, really no use....
~~~just now only get the news from my friend that she will not coming back here tomorrow, so
sad, because i really din saw her for a long long time period...but what can so since she really
cant back here, so i just can wait for next time....
~~~my another friend (new friend), he also will going to leave KL soon, is very soon.....
suddenly me like lost so many friend geh?? so emo la.....nothing else i can do well.....
hope him can done well in his FINAL and get a good good job......and hope that he won forget
his promise to come back here to visit us....haha.....
~~~exam exam exam !!!!!!!! i really need to study if not sure die ......i cant dissapointed my
daddy and mummy, i must add oil and do my best.....
~~~2MORO start study, steph, believe urself, i can do it.....

cUtE CuTe FaMiLy.....

~~~actually nothing to do, but suddenly thinking of my family, i din go back home for almost 3 weeks d...miss my family so much....

~~and i also believe that my daddy n mummy also do miss me a lot...coz once almost friday that is today, both of them will calling and asking me whether i got go back or not....haiz...sadly to say that i dissappointed them again this week....haiz..so sorry daddy and mummy....really love u all....

2 fEllOw SiNg K??

21 August 2008
~~this is the day that we waiting for so long, we refers to me n siew sin only....haha....^-^ finally we had done all of our assignments except the FR assignment, btu this one will have to pass up during the sem break, so we still can sambil lazy lazy lol.....
~~well today is our relaxing time. we went to sing k and juzt two of us...sounds like very boring, but i untung a lot because she dunno chinese well, so i m the one who sing so much songs today...haha...sorry ya...siew sin....
~~after sing k, we went to GASOLINE to have our dinner....i ordered a MARYLAND CHICKEN CHOP and siew sin ordered a GASOLINE FRIED CHICKEN CHOP + a "BIG" juice of green apple + carrot.....wat is consider big? i cant saw from that drink actually...haha....
~~another horrible things we had experienced today, is really horrible+terrible.....but luckily it doesnt broke our mood of enjoying.....fortunately....pray to GOD..thanks a lot....

this is me ~~AMEI!!!!

dear sister....siew sin....

wow..so "bersih".....

same as this as well......

gasoline fried chicken chop....

maryland chicken chop.....

siew sin bought these..twins ...can hang thing de...

ey..y got a dinosaur tail come out from the jug???

green apple + carrot juice

siew sin is proving that they cant "do thing"..hahaha....funny la...

~~~~okok...end of my journey today......be patient , will be more n more coming out soon.....

CeLeBrAtiNg ....rEy mUn.....

18 August 2008----me, siew sin, ying, ah fai, we go klcc avenue k celebrate rey mun bday at KIM GARY RESTAURANT! haha....quite interesting and funny. Since we finish our course in diploma, we seldom gather together coz we are in different courses....so i do miss them a lot....

dat day, each of us eat damm a lot man, especially rey mun our main character, he really ate a lot....haha, well, he is so "贪吃" , haha...hope he won see my blog , if not i will be killed...

the "六保咖哩饭" is so so so nice, i like that very much. almost all ofus ordered that dishes. except our rey mun....haha....

******here, i m just wanna wish my fren all the best and all your dreams come true ya....happy forever...and hope our frenship will last forever n ever.....

see...this is our "watak utama " of the day oo...MR REY MUN....

this wat we eat..but just left over the saki baki...haha...

this is me n ying...shoot in the toilet in TGV cinema...wahaha

this is our MR FAI...so tall man....but "yong soi"..haha...

yeah....this is me n siew sin....wahaha...sista forever....

********HOPE OUR FRENSHIP LAST FOREVER......!!!!!

迷失方向的我 *-*

每当一个人的时候，人总是很容易的走失， 找不到回头的路，也没办法一直停留在原地，因为时间会一直的走动， 它并不会因为你而停留了下来。人生到底是什么？怎么样才算是个完整而完美的人生呢？种种的疑惑，一直盘旋在心里，找不到个肯定的答案，似乎是个永远都不会有答案的疑问。。可是为什么我还是执着的要寻找出它呢？为什么？我不停的重复反问着自己。。。渐渐的迷失了方向。。。渐渐的遗失了自我。。。渐渐的忘记了原有的原则，该是什么样子？渐渐的。。。。。。。。。。那一道希望的光变得模糊，模糊得连自己都看不清路--该怎么走？

渺小得我。。。

最近觉得还蛮有兴趣要写blog了，也不知道为什么总是有很多话想说可是却说不出来了。。。我是个如此平凡的女生，非常的不起眼。。。怎么听起来好像很理说当然的？ 难道我的生命里就不能有些奇迹吗？
--每天总是过着一样的生活，日子每一天都在重复， 一次又一次的。。我的人生应该是这样的吗？到底我的生命里几时才会出现懂得珍惜我的他？ 到底是什么时候？累的时候总是想有个人能让我依靠， 虽然我貌似坚强，可是我也会有软弱的时候。也需要一个温暖的拥抱，一个有安全感的肩膀，可是那个他到底在哪里？ 我真的好累好累了。。。我真的渺小到让他没办法看见我吗？ 他什么时候才会把他的注意力放到我身上？

EmO EmO dE Me......==

唉， 今天考试时间表已经出了哦。虽然时间好像还不错的感觉，可是我怎么好象还是这么的没心情呢？整个人都好像在放弃的感觉了，很没用叻。。。张美婷， 你可不可以振作一点啊？拿出你的精神来好不好。。。别这么的颓废。。。

心里一直都好想叹气的，一直想唉个不停。。。惨了，糟了，我是怎么了？有谁能告诉我呢？现在的心情真的是低到不行了。。。想要句鼓励的话都没有，错，是没有人能给到我。。。就算是那么一丝丝的温暖。。。就连这个这么一丁点的东西也没有。。。我的人生是如此的“难过”，没有人会在乎我， 没有人会想起我，没有人会想念我，就连闪过的小小的画面都不会有。。。

也不懂在那方的你是否会想念我？会不会偶尔也会对我有些小小的忆起？ 我真得很想知道。。可是我却没有办法。。。知道你的想法，你的感觉，你的一切，你渐渐得离我而去，连头也不回， 我的心突然迷失了方向， 好彷徨，顿时不安，就这样沉沉沉。。。沉去一个黑暗的角落， 一个只有我，寂寞的我，彷徨的我，内心不安的我，没有你的世界我将会怎样？是否就这样沉在那里？？